Lonely Journey: Goodbye

To feel lost someone in your lonely journey for the first time is indeed painful. The pain is so strong like you've been forcefully pushed from a cliff. Finding a friend in your lonely journey is like finding an oasis in the desert. You can finally get some rest and enjoy the happiness. Happiness filled you. Well, maybe that's the thing. You've been indoctrinated by the happiness of finding the oasis itself. With that happiness, you just somehow throw yourself into the water to find pleasure. What you did not know that the oasis you've found turns out to be some kind of poisonous puddle. And with that one jump, one step, you've killed yourself.

The evilest thing we have as humans is that. Lust. Lust makes us not think of the coming events. Like that oasis, I should have checked it first to make sure that I'm save there. To check if there's nothing that can harm me. But what can I do now? I've killed myself. I've killed myself and I lost my own oasis. What did I do so wrong to receive this kind of torture? I'm just imperfect human. I have lots of mistakes and I will always make mistakes. Just please God, stop this torture. It's killing me slowly.